It’s time to share another fine art piece with all of you. This is another piece that is a part of the self-portrait series that I’m calling The Journey. The series deals with emotions and things that have happened along our road of infertility like hope, strength, anger, sorrow, etc… The many moments that comprise the whole. You can take a peek at all my fine art work features here.

Previously, I shared a similar piece about Stopping Time, and this image was born from the same idea. That idea of controlling time. Of wishing to delay it… slow it… stop it. This is something I can’t help but think about often. Considering how different our life would look if things had worked out according to plan. Just last week Ryan and I were talking about how old our children would be… Had we been able to get pregnant within the first year like most normal couples, our oldest child would be 6 years old this year. The babies we lost would be 16 months old and the twins would have been 3 months old. And yet… here we are… still childless. Plus, I look at the time passing and I see the future… I see how old we will be when our children are graduating high school and college and it makes me sad knowing we will be older parents… something I didn’t really want to be. But as time continues to pass… that is sadly looking more and more like it will be our reality – if our hopes and dreams are ever achieved at all.

This piece was really pretty simple. I knew I wanted to utilize this pocket watch I had from Hobby Lobby a while ago. So I took some macro shots of this. Then I took some shots of myself in my front room, using a wrapping paper roll as the arm for the clock. Then I got to pull those images together into photoshop to begin to play. I again failed to remember to record my timelapse of editing this piece. So I’ve recorded another walk through of the individual layers so you can see the steps in creating this piece. You can check it out below

And here’s the completed piece